You can't stop yourself from growing from an adolescents to an adult. However you can prevent yourself from turning into one of those you dislike. When you're younger you tell yourself not to turn into one of those useless adults in your family or in the public you see. Unreasonable, haughty and those that always think that they are right.
Growing up I'm surrounded by adults. Good ones and those who are really trash. It always happens that trashy ones are guys. They are those that send me invisible notice that I should never grow up to be like one of them.
Always asking kids if they are stupid/ lousy and forcing them to reply yes. What are you trying to prove here? A 37 years old man asking a kid such question after he done something wrong or slow at learning something? Just because you're a graduate doesn't mean you're smart.
If you're really smart you should have known that the poor kid will be demoralized and what you say stains their mind forever just like an undies left in the laundry basket unwashed for a week. The stains never disappear. It's there forever.
I'm blogging this because I have uncles who really suck donkey balls. These are 2 people I never respect.
The females in my family are asking me to show them respect but how? How are you ever going to do it when one, your blood related uncle can steal your grandma's money, force a kid to say his stupid/ lousy, tells a million lies and be so stupid to not clear his cache after watching porn?
When another is a fucking guy (aunt's husband but also called uncle) who did something bad to you when you're 8? Tell me how? HOW?! HOWAM I GOING TO RESPECT THEM?!
As much as I know they don't worth every bit of my attention I must admit they gave me a great impact in my life. No matter how lousy a man is, he's there for a reason. Everything in life happens for a reason.
They are there to remind me never to become one of them.
On a daily basis I tell myself not to spend money I haven't earn to buy things I don't want to impress people I don't know or don't like.
Never mind if you don't own labels. Never mind if you're not rich.
As long as you know what you're doing is right and believe in yourself, it's sufficient.
For years I've been pleasing my parents, letting them affect the choices I make in life till sometimes I forgot who I am and what I want. I even make choices I don't like just to please them then make myself like it afterwards, telling myself they are my parents and it can't be wrong.
They mock at my passion, my ambition and stop me from doing what I want to.
Do you know what I like best today?
Doing all the things they've said no and thought I could not do. I won't be stupid to go against them just to prove them otherwise. I know what I want clearer than what they think.
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